With everything that we go through it is incredible that we can still have hope.
After finding out that we were going to miscarry again I wasn't sure if I would ever have hope again.
It wasn't until afterwards that I was able to start to see some silver linings.
The first was the knowledge that I am surrounded by friends and family who are unbelievably supportive and kind. My amazing family called to check on me everyday and offered to jump on the next plan to be with me. My friends called, honored my wishes when I said I needed space, and then showed up at my door with a care package of pre-made meals and much needed hugs.
The other realization was that I didn't care about having to use donor eggs. Initially I had to go through a bit of a mourning period before we decided to use donor eggs. It was hard to give up the hope of having a child that was genetically linked to me.
After I got pregnant, however, I didn't once think about it. I was simply overjoyed to be pregnant.
From the moment I found out, in my head and especially in my heart, it was OUR baby.
Finally we've found a next step which I'll write about it in my next post.
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